Monday, March 24, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
God Moment...
Very often I have experiences with my children that remind me of how Heavenly Father must feel about me. I have been meaning to write them down...so here goes!
I remember when the kids were maybe 2 years old in the "want to do it myself" stage and how frustrating that was for me as a parent because I wanted to help! For example I don't remember if it was Brooklyn or Tyson but one of them was trying to put on their shoe...
"Can mommy help you?
"No"
Few moments go by...
"Can mommy help you?"
"No, do it myself."
Few more moments...
"Will you please let mommy help you get your shoe on?"
"No."
Pause...more trying
"Mommy, can you help me?"
"Sure baby! Mommy always loves to help you when you ask."
How many times do we try and try to do things our self and fail? Then, when we finally turn to the Lord and ask for help, He is eager to help us with our need. I remember stopping and hearing myself say this and realize I should stop trying to do things myself. Myself is not always so good, but HE ALWAYS is.
I put this one in my notepad in my cell phone back in July but I cant remember what the set up was to it...
"Tyson you need to start being more patient or mommy's going to stop doing nice things. Does mommy always take care of you? Then you don't need to worry."
Boy this one speaks to my heart time and time again. Being patient is not one of my best qualities. I want what I want and I want it now and I murmur if I don't get it now. I suppose that is what Ty was doing. A typical kid thing to ask for something over and over again and throw a fit if he senses it is not happening fast enough or he fears it won't happen period.
This one, I was on my way down to LDS services to have an adoption paperwork meeting and I wanted to keep the kids quiet when we were there so I packed them a snack. I didn't tell them about the snack because I wanted to surprise them. The whole drive over they were talking about wanting a snack in the car and driving me bonkers...so I said as we turned in the parking lot...
"If you just relax and be patient, you would be surprised what mommy has in store for you."
I knew that I had a snack for them and they wouldn't have to feel hungry but they didn't know what I had hidden for them. I knew they would be fine and happy with what I packed them, but they couldn't wait or trust that I would take care of there needs. So I gave them the snack and all was well. All that belly aching for nothing! I knew what they needed. Well, this really hit home for me at the time as I was aching for another baby . We knew there was another baby girl that needed to come to our family, but didn't know when or how. Invitro,embryo adoption, foster care, adoption? I was prepared to do any of it. Much as I considered adoption to be more heart break then happiness, I got the paperwork together to become certified again to adopt. I wanted a baby and NOW! I needed to be patient so I could enjoy the surprises Heavenly Father had in store. He never disappoints!
LAST ONE FOR TODAY
I was at the walmart mcdonalds and Brooklyn told me she wanted a cookie for after her meal. i didn't really want to get one for them, but I felt like surprising them so I did. When Brooklyn asked if I got cookies I said "no". As I sat down and layed out there nuggets and fries, Brooklyn had her eye on the bag that had cookies in it. She kept asking me what was in the bag and frustrated I said...
"Brooklyn, how about you just be grateful for what is in front of you already rather than asking for something else so soon."
Same thing here...I felt a whoosh come over me. As soon as I get something good...it's like I can't stand the calm. I am immediately looking for the next best thing. SHAME ON ME.
Heavenly Father has provided for me in ways I could never had dreamed up . I mean it. I LITERALLY couldn't come up with the ways he has blessed me in my life. He is so amazing and I am so grateful to him for being patient with me as I learn patience. I am grateful he makes me come unto him through the trials he sends and the weaknesses I have. I am so grateful he is teaching me how to be a better daughter to Him through my children.
I remember when the kids were maybe 2 years old in the "want to do it myself" stage and how frustrating that was for me as a parent because I wanted to help! For example I don't remember if it was Brooklyn or Tyson but one of them was trying to put on their shoe...
"Can mommy help you?
"No"
Few moments go by...
"Can mommy help you?"
"No, do it myself."
Few more moments...
"Will you please let mommy help you get your shoe on?"
"No."
Pause...more trying
"Mommy, can you help me?"
"Sure baby! Mommy always loves to help you when you ask."
How many times do we try and try to do things our self and fail? Then, when we finally turn to the Lord and ask for help, He is eager to help us with our need. I remember stopping and hearing myself say this and realize I should stop trying to do things myself. Myself is not always so good, but HE ALWAYS is.
I put this one in my notepad in my cell phone back in July but I cant remember what the set up was to it...
"Tyson you need to start being more patient or mommy's going to stop doing nice things. Does mommy always take care of you? Then you don't need to worry."
Boy this one speaks to my heart time and time again. Being patient is not one of my best qualities. I want what I want and I want it now and I murmur if I don't get it now. I suppose that is what Ty was doing. A typical kid thing to ask for something over and over again and throw a fit if he senses it is not happening fast enough or he fears it won't happen period.
This one, I was on my way down to LDS services to have an adoption paperwork meeting and I wanted to keep the kids quiet when we were there so I packed them a snack. I didn't tell them about the snack because I wanted to surprise them. The whole drive over they were talking about wanting a snack in the car and driving me bonkers...so I said as we turned in the parking lot...
"If you just relax and be patient, you would be surprised what mommy has in store for you."
I knew that I had a snack for them and they wouldn't have to feel hungry but they didn't know what I had hidden for them. I knew they would be fine and happy with what I packed them, but they couldn't wait or trust that I would take care of there needs. So I gave them the snack and all was well. All that belly aching for nothing! I knew what they needed. Well, this really hit home for me at the time as I was aching for another baby . We knew there was another baby girl that needed to come to our family, but didn't know when or how. Invitro,embryo adoption, foster care, adoption? I was prepared to do any of it. Much as I considered adoption to be more heart break then happiness, I got the paperwork together to become certified again to adopt. I wanted a baby and NOW! I needed to be patient so I could enjoy the surprises Heavenly Father had in store. He never disappoints!
LAST ONE FOR TODAY
I was at the walmart mcdonalds and Brooklyn told me she wanted a cookie for after her meal. i didn't really want to get one for them, but I felt like surprising them so I did. When Brooklyn asked if I got cookies I said "no". As I sat down and layed out there nuggets and fries, Brooklyn had her eye on the bag that had cookies in it. She kept asking me what was in the bag and frustrated I said...
"Brooklyn, how about you just be grateful for what is in front of you already rather than asking for something else so soon."
Same thing here...I felt a whoosh come over me. As soon as I get something good...it's like I can't stand the calm. I am immediately looking for the next best thing. SHAME ON ME.
Heavenly Father has provided for me in ways I could never had dreamed up . I mean it. I LITERALLY couldn't come up with the ways he has blessed me in my life. He is so amazing and I am so grateful to him for being patient with me as I learn patience. I am grateful he makes me come unto him through the trials he sends and the weaknesses I have. I am so grateful he is teaching me how to be a better daughter to Him through my children.
Not Fabulous!
So today I took the kids to Kiddie Kandids to get pics done. That is always a fun experience! I made the appointment for just after Naya's nap and had a bottle in my purse for her to have in the stoller on the way in the mall...so she would be just perfectly happy for pictures. And then there was the careful planning of getting Brooklyn and Ty ready...not TOO soon before we headed out the door so as to not have them spill anything on their shirts or mess up there hair. ANYWAY, we got some cute shots but Naya, despite all my efforts was quite grumpy and wanted to be held and the kids were tired of their "fake" smiling and asking to leave. You know that age of the "fake" smile. And of course I was bribing them all the while with ice cream and playing at the mall.
So after pics and lunch (at which I made Tyson wear Naya's bib to eat his pizza because it would all end up on his new cream colored sweater)...we went to get Dippin Dots. We are sitting down enjoying our astronaut ice cream when 2 gals in probably their 20's walk up to the counter. One in particular with bleach blonde hair (very damaged but long) in a tight tank top showing her mid section and leopard print shorts with her bum cheeks hanging out. I wanted to cover the kids eyes! Tyson says "Look at her pants.." but didn't have the words to say what he was really thinking. Then Brooklyn says "Mom, we don't want to see her privacy's...those are her underwear...she does NOT look fabulous!" I chuckled pretty loud about that one. So I took that opportunity to say that we don't dress like that. Hope she continues to think that "style" of dress is "NOT fabulous" when she is a teen!
So after pics and lunch (at which I made Tyson wear Naya's bib to eat his pizza because it would all end up on his new cream colored sweater)...we went to get Dippin Dots. We are sitting down enjoying our astronaut ice cream when 2 gals in probably their 20's walk up to the counter. One in particular with bleach blonde hair (very damaged but long) in a tight tank top showing her mid section and leopard print shorts with her bum cheeks hanging out. I wanted to cover the kids eyes! Tyson says "Look at her pants.." but didn't have the words to say what he was really thinking. Then Brooklyn says "Mom, we don't want to see her privacy's...those are her underwear...she does NOT look fabulous!" I chuckled pretty loud about that one. So I took that opportunity to say that we don't dress like that. Hope she continues to think that "style" of dress is "NOT fabulous" when she is a teen!
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